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#swipe to see what I looked like at this time last year. ⁣ ⁣ I distinctly remember how much I hated the way I looked at that time because I thought I had too much weight around my hips and thighs. If nothing had changed in my life around this time, I don’t even want to imagine where I’d be today with the obsessive thoughts I had about my size, what I ate, trying to stay below 1200 calories a day, and high intensity cardio 25-45 minutes 6 days a week. On January 18th 2019, if you had told me that 1 year later I’d be sitting in my friend’s place eating KFC at 1am and watching a horror film, laughing my heart out while fully sober — I would not have believed you. I still eat healthy, but I also allow myself flexibility in my diet because I have a better (and healthier) understanding and relationship with myself and what I do. I am no longer mentally separate from my experiences; anxiety and physical appearance alike, they’re all me. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. ⁣ ⁣ I love my body, I am holistically healthy, and there is nothing more I want for the rest of this year, decade, and life than to be healthy. Swipe to the last pic to see how happy I am to be fit, strong, and have functionality 💪🏾 Fitness is a never ending journey & I am proud to be on it. 🧘🏽‍♀️🥇 #health #selflove #journeytowellness

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You’ll be amazed what you attract when you start to believe in what you deserve ✨

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Your relationship with yourself is the most important relationship you will ever have. The way you love yourself speaks to the way you carry yourself, take care of your appearance and physical health, consume nutritious food for the body, mind, and soul, and with what and whom you are surrounded by. Although we are all either visibly or silently oppressed by the challenges of our lives, we are still in far more control of our destiny than we think and every conscious moment is an opportunity to set ourselves free from depreciative language and actions. We can: ⁣ ⁣ • beg our relationships with others to work although they’re toxic for us (a sign we are not respecting ourselves enough) ⁣ • belittle ourselves, get stuck in ruts we think we think we deserve (a sign we have weak self-empowerment) ⁣ • compare ourselves to others (a sign of weak self-compassion) ⁣ • get anxious and let fear rule our lives (a sign that we are not trusting ourselves) ⁣ • make choices that we later regret, ignoring our boundaries and needs (a sign that we don’t see our own worth) ⁣ ⁣ — but nothing changes if nothing changes. You have to believe that you are in control and that you decide how your life should be lived. Nothing and no one can stop you from fighting your demons, pushing yourself to become a better version of yourself every day, and honouring your mental and emotional health. Everyone has a story of where they started and why they became the way that they are, but not everyone gives themselves a chance to change the narrative on their own life. Give yourself a chance, make that change, live the life you deserve. #NothingChangesIfNothingChanges #YearOfShaz #EmpowerYourself #Motivation #MentalHealth #holistichealth

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18 years old 📸 (ph @madebyank) #archive

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“Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbours, and let every year find you a better person.” . . As picture perfect as I create my life to seem, I strive to create the beauty I put on Instagram in my real life as well. With that being said, I’ve hit a lot of rock bottoms this year and really struggled for the first time with issues that (once resolved) will probably shape me for the rest of my life. I struggled emotionally with the complexities of pain and heartbreak that came with romantic relationships, friendships, family bonds, and myself; Physically, with retraining myself to believe every version of my body is beautiful; Spiritually, with the challenges I found connecting to God; And mentally, while working and studying, where I was pushed to manage my ADHD and anxiety at a higher level. . . It hasn’t been an easy year for me, but nothing incredible comes from what is easy. I pushed for this, I prayed for this, and I remind myself every single day that I am incredibly lucky to call these my problems. I hope to continue to manifest love & light into my life in the new year, iA 💫

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Don’t be scared, I look at all my prey like this 🕷

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So honoured to have been chosen to be a part of this shoot & to have worked with such a talented team. Thank you for everything Nick💛 Here’s to 2020 being filled with more passionate creatives ❣️ • • • Posted @withrepost • @nicksaglimbeni Closing the year grateful for the talented models, clients and crew that help us bring you beautiful content. It was a historic year for our Maxim India stars, who’ve attracted fans around the world and tallied record views on our channel. @s.gafoor nears 250K, see Shazeeda’s video at SlickforceTV, link in bio. #ShazeedaGafoor #MaximIndia #Saglimbeni #Slickforce

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The divine feminine

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Soft and simple makeup by @wendyrorong; beauty test for @alvarogoveia @spot6management 💛 #yellow #simple #testshoot #model #sundaze #makeup #bts

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Intimacy is often confused with sex. It is misplaced in our experiences with people who don’t love us, and people we don’t love. To be intimate is to be known deeply, to be seen, to be touched without physical connection. Intimacy is to be seen without fear of judgement. It is willingness to be patient in the face of one’s mistakes, it is patience with a hidden emotion seeking daylight in a manner that you are not accustomed to. It is visiting and revisiting fears over again, until the shame of our past is met with acceptance. Intimacy without touching is something that is lost among people who can’t speak to the voice in their own head with love and compassion. Intimacy requires no hands, no physical sensation, no heightened sense of touch. Intimacy is vulnerability. #YearOfShaz #growth #understanding #emapthy #knowledgeofself

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Makeup appreciation post 😍, mastered by @lesonne_bridals for today’s magazine shoot with @mustbekismet_official! Hitting stores in early 2020 ✨ @spot6management

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Claiming that I switched on ya only cause I hit a switch on ya