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Oh boy, do they ever! This yr has been the toughest, most gruelling year. But after 6 months of deep hurt, loss & serious anxiety I can honestly tell u that I’m able to see the light at the end of that dark, cold tunnel! I’m finally able to get back up on my two feet & pull through. I was extremely unhappy at my previous job & it took over me. Who was once a strong, determined, positive woman became a fearful, weak, sick person. Everyday I had to do a lil pep talk & say “Ok Melissa, another day, another dollar. Get your shit together & kill it!” It was so exhausting. I finally left that toxic place. 👊🏼 Eventually, my Nonna got very sick & was bed-ridden. That was the icing on the cake for me. I felt I had to be there for her & my focus shifted. I had to watch her suffer & struggle everyday & it was putting my whole family in complete agony. Like the floor just vanished beneath my feet & I was heading into a downwards spiral. I went through a lot of other shit in a short amount of time. I was forced to say goodbye to my Nonna and planned her funeral. ❤️From her clothes in the casket to the writings on her tombstone. The same week, we got told that my Nonno is battling cancer. Stage four. Terrible. Then I had to say goodbye to my dog Holly & put her down. I still haven’t even posted anything regarding that because I can’t believe it. Some days I wake up thinking I need to walk her, & then I remember that she’s gone. I then get an email from a friend saying her final goodbye to me because she too will be passing away from cancer. Life is short, live it big & live it well! Don’t have any regrets. All that we have in this life are lessons. These lessons make you stronger & they mould you into a better 2.0 version of yourself. Love one another, show that you care. Love YOURSELF, for fuck sakes. Surround yourself with ppl who matter. I got a new job & I’m loving it. Things are looking up for me and my family. I have the best support system & couldn’t go through all of this on my own. They didn’t give up on me. You all know who you are. Oh yeah, and FUCK CANCER! #realtalk #fuckcancer #selflove #growth #tolerance #strength #light #knowyourworth #rip
