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✨LIFE✨
Wow. What a wild ride it’s been. And it’s not over yet! The mental gymnastics this disease has put me through is criminal 😂 Being sick is one thing. They don’t warn you about what comes with it.
It’s so hard to even find the words at this point, if you have been unwell for over a year you know. The isolation. Depression. The PAIN. It’s officially a little over a month since Surgery, and lemme tell you, your girl is not doing very well at all!
When you are unwell sometimes you feel the need to appear normal/healthy and it’s even harder when on the outside I look (GOODT lol) healthy but I am suffering in every aspect internally. I. Am. Suffering.
A lot of energy’s been put into being gentle with myself when I can, it’s frustrating because as much as I love to complain (lol) this is just me being honest. Real. This is ugly. The pain, isolation, depression, the PAIN is so UGLY it’s truly like a monster has moved into my body and I just need to try to focus on things other then it ripping up my insides…
BUT! She IS healing!!! And I felt really good to get out of the house for once and remember I’m so much more then my pain.
I am love, I am light, I am laughter
I’m still here 🤎
Ps. Special thank you to @eddieartistry for having me, it’s a luxury being in your seat, and to Courtenay and Darren @keymodels for basically being my adoptive parents and being THE most understanding, caring and motivating agents/humans a girl could ask for! ❤️
